Admire Here

For you, i have sacrificed too much. Too much that i can't even figure out why. Too much that i hate myself for getting way too attached this time round. Too much that i realise i am slowly losing my cheerful self. But sharon's words were so true. Everything was like a tight slap on my face. You probably don't love me, no, you don't even love me. I was just an ego-booster. You have someone who you are more serious with. And that someone wins me in terms of everything. Basking in my friends' laughters thinking how happy i was in the past laughing with them, and not like now, crying because i'm so hurt. I don't know what to do now because everything seems so wrong, i don't know how to feel, how to proceed in life. This is the worst phase because i know how i have everyone with me, but my hands aren't gripping tight, because i'm feeling weak. And i feel like i'm disappointing everyone, disgusting everyone with my true self. I'm just hurt from inside out. 

And i just came to realise it's already the month of August. July was the worst month, goodbye to you.