No idea if anyone would sympathize me. Recalling back ever since this semester break started, i've been involved in clubbing more often (which means sleeping at unearthly hours and spoiling the liver), meeting up with friends, working 4 consecutive full shift days at Joob (the tiredness is no joke), more clubbing, and attending dates. You notice that out of the above things i mentioned, 3 of them is draining my energy in a bad way. My bedtime has been officially around 9 or 10 AM, which is terribly terrible. Or i'll be busy with shitloads of shit that only grants me a pathetic 1 or 2 hours of sleep. Worst off is i might be having a long day ahead the next day, and a continuous of maybe barely another hour of sleep again. To reexplain it means i have been having maybe a total of only 4 hours of sleep in 2 days. The best time i can actually take a wink is in transports when i am rushing off to somewhere, and nowadays i tend to miss my stop. Like the other day i slept through and the cab uncle drove past my house for perhaps 1 km?
I am so sleep and rest deprived, many a times i can feel my body crumbling down, and no matter how much sleep i compensate with myself after regretting not to, it doesn't seem to help. Once i screw it, it's like the end. Pimples are developing, eye circles are getting darker. I look so worn out, but this isn't the worst. Feeling worn out is the worst. Things around me have to take dramatic twist and turns when i already feel this beat out, and sometimes i feel like i'm just going to snap sooner or later. But this is the life i chose, the fulfilling and packed holiday i asked myself for. The happiest i've been in this holiday was probably when i was reunited with Olivia.
Having said how pathetic my plight is, this is another one common example. The day before yesterday i slept at 4am, woke up at 10am. With 4 hours of sleep, i battled River Safari in the afternoon, Halloween Horror Night 4 at USS later in the night, reached home at 4am this morning, an hour of sleep, woke up at 5am, rushed down to Joob for a last minute order (please note i am still in the same set of clothes as of yesterday), knocked off at 12pm, took a cab down to the customer's place for delivery. Finally homed at 1pm. I literally died, from exhaustion.
So who to sympathize me or pat me on my shoulders to tell me i really need to love my body more? I mean who doesn't love the feeling of being told by someone that i've had a long and hard day, and it's time i get ample rest. So when my friends were worried about my body, i felt they know what i needed best. I don't need people to deliver tangible items to me, or make extravagant things, their simple words of distress can already charged me up. It's nice to be living in this world with people who understands you at their finger tips, it means they have accepted the real you.
Swee Choon for dinner last monday, and chilled at Five bar afterwards with wt and tiff! Enjoyed talking over drinks with these ladies :)
TGIW
So as of my example i illustrated above, i braved the hot sun and humid weather to visit River Safari with my favourite girls yest afternoon! Oh my being a local here, i am shameless to say i have yet to visit river safari (but now i did), adventure cove, trick eye museum, and gardens by the bay....
River safari is not too bad? Guess it's more suitable for tourists, but i still like visiting the wildlife reserve once in awhile, cos i don't always get a chance to. And i guess the company makes up to everything. I mean who else other than them to be jumping around with? Who else other than them to be snapping exaggerating and ugly pictures in the public? Who else other than them to seek my simplest source of happiness? Thanks girls i had a great afternoon hehe.
^ Love this picture of Starquah and i hehe
^ VOGUE
Later that evening i met Jon for our #HHN4 at Universal Studios Singapore! My first time for the Halloween there and i was actually kind of disappointed. The 4 haunted houses were a total disappointment, you could guess all the tricks and where the ghosts are hiding, there is certainly no horror vibes at all. But i had fun playing back the rides, and i actually like the Jack's Nightmare Circus show! It was not too bad :)
While we were queuing for our 3rd Haunted House, which is the Jing's Revenge, we finally bumped into Han and JJ! Night got a little better instantly :-)
Just back from dinner with Trena bb! And i am feeling the tiredness kicking in already....
There is so much i want to say or explain, but i just can't find the right words and moment to say them here. It feels like no matter how i voice, there is no one who can completely understand what i am referring. I don't hate anyone for anything, more like i hate myself for always messing things up and being contradicting. Can i end this dead soul feeling in me?
Ok my bad. I feel really exhausted i can't find anymore things to add on. Forgive me for the lack of ideas to blog because my brain refuse to work due to insufficient sleep. Will see you guys real soon, fuck school it's reopening.
