Admire Here

What the fuck am i even thinking or hoping. This world ain't some kind of fairytale so wake the fuck up huiyi, when it's not meant to be and you still struggle to make things your way, it'll only turn nastier. 

But no matter how i scold myself with the worst comments i could think of, at the end of the day i pity myself for landing into such a situations times and again. Not once not twice, but i think the umpteenth time. I can't differentiate if i am feeling more to numb or more to hurt about all these. Contradicting huh.