Here i am, drown in thoughts, tears and the exact scene that happened almost every night probably 5 years ago. I remember in the past whenever my sis tells me how much she hates this family and wants to leave us soon, i will beg her and cry so hard because i treasure this family so much. Now 5 years from now, the same thing occurred. I thought it was over until i asked my sis "A few months back we were so great, why do you looked like you changed now?" And my sis replied hurtfully, "A few months back was all just what's on the surface."
Wasn't it true happiness and laughter we were enjoying a few months ago? Those were the words that hurt so badly up till now, that up till now even when she bring up those words, my tears would still flow. I tried so hard to keep this family in shape and trust me i have been doing this job for an entire 6 years. But today i realised it was all in vain, and there is nothing else i can do to relieve the feeling sis held inside her. Is it because of my presence sis? Because right till now the words a few years back are still as crystal clear in my mind "Sometimes i hate your presence, because if it's not for it, mom will probably love me more."
