Admire Here

This is the ever first time i felt i hate a year so much. This year, everything started crashing down, in the past no matter how other things crash, i thought some things will never, becos i took it for granted that they'll never fall on me. But it turned out that my clique, the ones i never thought a friendship will have big crisis, a friendship i thought will never have unhappy times that will prolong, turned out that we all fell and now it's just isn't the same. Never thought my cousins, the ones i'll never ever have problems with, the ones that i'll laugh so truthfully even if i have tons of problems at the back, turned out that they fell out with me last night too. The first time i really felt nothing's forever, nothing. In this world i only have myself to count on. Stay put. I miss you bro, i really need someone to talk to everything about. There's no one now, & i'm feeling so breathless.